100 questions about me :D

1. Last beverage: Water :D
2. Last phone call: Mom.
3. Last text message: Kai Liang
4. Last song you listened to: I could sing of your love forever
5. Last time you cried: Few days ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Nope
7. Been cheated on: Yeah, ugh.. wasn't worth it anyways.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Nope, never.
9. Lost someone special: I lost that someone who used to be special.. a friend. :(
10. Been depressed: All the time.. haha.
11. Been drunk and threw up: I drink, but never drunk. = =''

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. Blue

14. White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend : More than ever ! :D
16. Fallen out of love :.....
17. Laughed until you cried: All the time ! xD
18. Met someone who changed you : Not quite.
19. Found out who your true friends were : Yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you : Hmm..Nope
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : I still keeping mah first kiss, i guess.><
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life : Mostly I know them. :P
23. How many kids do you want? : Ouch>< painful !
24. Do you have any pets : tortoise and fish ,So do the Lizards and insects ==
25. Do you want to change your name?: Hey, my name is awesome and unique ! No wayyy~!
26. What did you do for your last birthday : Was having my Geography exam=(
27. What time did you wake up? : 6 am if there's school. if nt, sleep till i wanna wake up :D
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Fb chatting . gua.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for : Breaking Dawn!!!!! =)
30. Last time you saw your Mother : few hours ago before she went for bed.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : Nothing:D
32. What are you listening to right now : Silence.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom :I used to scold Tom cat on TV when i was young ! xD
34. Who is getting on your nerves now? : Mah sister!
35. Most visited webpage : Facebook, Youtube, Google , Blogger.
36. Whats your real name : Chan Yu Xuan
37. Nicknames : Swan.etc etc.
38. Relationship Status : Single :D.
39. Zodiac sign : Gemini
40. Male or female? : Female
41. Primary School? : SJK(C) On Pong
42. Secondary School? : SMKTK
43. High school/college? : I'm only 14 years old. D:
44. Hair colour : Blackyyyyy. ;D
45. Long or short : Long?
46. Height : 167cm++ i think. Gah, shorty ! ><
47. Do you have a crush on someone? : Lalala~
48: What do you like about yourself? :Errr..nothing i guess.
49. Piercings : Gone for good.
50. Tattoos : I'm clean. Teehee
51. Righty or lefty : Righty :D

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery : God protects me :)
53. First piercing : last year?
54. First best friend : Yap Voon May.
55. First sport you joined : Bowling
56. First vacation : US. When i was in my mom's tummy ! xD
58. First pair of trainer : Hah ?

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating : Nothing
60. Drinking : Nope
61. I'm about to : Sleep ~zzzzz
62. Listening to : Nothing too
63. Waiting for : Myself to finish this thingy.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? : Oh..yes. Oh ..no. Oh.. i don't know
65. Get married? : Probably?
66. Career : Doctor!

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes : SMILE!:D
68. Hugs or kisses :Hugs! <3
69. Shorter or taller : Taller.
70. Older or Younger :It doesnt matter.
71. Romantic or spontaneous : Both ?
72. Nice stomach or nice arms : ????
73. Sensitive or loud : Loudddd !lalala~
74. Hook-up or relationship : ><

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger : No. :O
77. Drank hard liquor : Yeahhh. :P
78. Lost glasses/contacts : Lost for about 3 to 4 times. ><
79. Sex on first date : Aheeem.. No.
80. Broken someone's heart : Yes.
82. Been arrested : Eww, no. I'm good and innocent. *perasan*
83. Turned someone down : Yes, i think.
84. Cried when someone died : People dies, who's happy ??
85. Fallen for a friend : Hmmm....

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Sometimes, No.
88. Love at first sight : NO.NEVER.
89. Heaven : Yessssssss~!
90. Santa Claus : NO..TT
91. Kiss on the first date :LoLNo
92. Angels : Yeaaaahh.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time : Ew, i'm not a cheater.
95. Did you sing today? : I don't live a day without singing. :D
96. Ever cheated on somebody? : Err, no.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : I love my life i am having right now!
98. The moment you would choose to relive? : Huh ?
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? : Yes.
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths? : Yeaaahhh. *struggles*

Okie, tag from someone few years ago

My life is empty. Oh No ! xD
nah~ just, borind. =w=

well, since i am boring, so trying to find out something i can play .
cheh, play.*coughs

Hmm..TAG from someone .

Okie, i tend to ignore their TAGS actually.

But, i am sooooooooo boring so i just found one, and trying to answer them now,

RIGHT HERE.

Kay...

here it goes....

1.) Have you ever been asked out?
Yes .

2.) Where was your default picture taken?
My room

3.) What's your middle name?
Yu xuan? @@

4.) Your current relationship status?
Single =]

5.) Does your crush like you back?
Nope=(

6.) What is your current mood?
So-So. Nt quite okay, nt quite bad.?

7.) What color of underwear are you wearing?
Seriously?=w=

8.) What color shirt are you wearing?
Black.

9.) Missing something?
Oh yaya!

10.) If you could go back in time and change something, what will u change??
My dad. He deleted my saved games in mah Ipod and Ipad ! Oh daddy!!xD

11) If you must be an animal for one day,wat??
Baby Polar bear , BABY! xD

12.) Ever have a near death experience?
Yes. Waterfall in selangor if i've nt mistaken. Terrified!

13.) Something you do alot?
Breathing ! lalala~

14.) The song stuck in your head?
Hands up-2Pm.

15.) Who did you copy and paste this from?
Suet Fun.=)

16.) Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Lee Sue Ann.

17.) When was the last time you cried?
Last Night. yeah...

18.) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Yes=P

19.) If you could have one super power what would it be?
Most of the super power came from a magic wand. So , i just want a powerful magic wand!xD

20.) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
FIrst thing, their smile !=]

21.) What do you usually order from starbucks?
Caramel Cappuccino / Etc! Love starbucks ! xD

22.) What's your biggest secret?
Lalala~

23.) Favorite color?
Black , White, Blue

24.) Do you still watch kiddie movie or tv shows?
I love Disney! xD bananas in pyjamus?xP

25.) What's on your wall?
huh?

26.) What are you?
Awesome Girl! hahax!:D

27.) Do you speak any other language?
I speak English, Chinese, Malay, Cantonese , Hakka, Hokkien .

28.) What's your favorite smell?
My pillow ! xP

29.) Describe your life in one word.

Amazing :D

30.) Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Nope, But i listen to the song ' KISS THE RAIN' in the rain ~xD

31.) What are you thinking about right now?
where the heck i put my towel after my bathe last night? @@

33.) What should you be doing?
Nothing.=w= Holidays what.

34.) Who was the last person who make you upset/ angry?
Myself =(

35.) How often do you talk to God?
Every night

36.) Do you like working in the yard?
NO. Way.

37.) If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
Yu Xuan ! =] haha

38.) Do you act differently around the person you like?
Erm, how do i know?

39.) What is your natural hair color?
Black. i guess so

40.) Who was the last person who make you cry?
Someone.....

Chris Tomlin - Lord I Need You

Lyrics

Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the One that guides my heart

Chorus
Lord, I need You, Oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Verse 2
Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Bridge
Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus, You're my hope and stay

我。。。。怎么了？=(

有时候有时候，真的有时候……
我，真的很难受。
到底是怎么了？
你和我之间，什么时候，又一道隐形的墙？
这道墙，在你和我不发觉的时候，出现了。
最近的我，非常非常反常。
是，我还是一样，语无伦次，傻傻的，呆呆的，疯疯的。
但，我一个人或面对你的时候，我，真得很不想说话。
你，可以说是我最最最最最好的朋友。
好到不能在形容的。
但，我真的不知道为什么，
我对你越来越无奈。
对不起，我，也不想。
我们也曾经冷战一次。我觉得我们经过那段风浪后，我以为我们的友谊会更加坚强。
但原来没有。我曾经包容，曾经不在乎。
但，我忍，忍得我够了。
我发觉你一次又一次再挑破我和他的友谊。
我，真的很辛苦。
为什么？
因为你，
也因为你，我开始讨厌我自己。
讨厌自己，在你面前伪装。
也很讨厌自己，不把心里的感受说出来。
我，很想很想 很想很想骂你。
但我没有，为何？因为我知道，那时我心态的问题，是我的情绪问题。
我，发觉自己最近真的很过分。
但是，我，没有选择。
跟你在一起，我很有自卑感。
是自卑感。我很怕。我很怕。
你什么都比我好。
什么东西都好像被你拿走。
你一次又一次的，在我不愿意之下，拿走我的东西……
最近的我，真的很奇怪，我真的真的很烦。
而且，动不动就哭起来。
不知道为什么，好像，有很大压力从上面压下我来。
我很矛盾。
我，很想很想当没有事情；
但是，看到你我真的很没有MOOD.
或许不是你的问题，一切问题都是我自己。
我真得很乱，迷失，发觉，现在拥有的脑袋，好像不是自己的。
神阿，我，到底怎么了?为什么最近的我都搞不清楚状况？为什么我最近都看每样事情都不爽？为什么我心里面不能单单有你？为什么我会遇到问题？为什么我一直发觉我的问题一直来？我真的很辛苦，辛苦到我有时候真的很想很想喊！大喊！我真的太多太多东西在藏在心里。神阿，求你来。求你，看顾一切。求你，纡萱真得很需要有你在我生命中。我真得真得很想感受到你。神。。。。。。。

Holidays? well~

Well, i know, seriously i know.
Don't need to remind me, don't need to mention it.
I DIDN'T UPDATE SINCE 29th JULY. =w=
I know.
So, what's now?
Okie, PMR is over and now i am having my HoLiDaYs!
Gah! i hate holidays. seriously.
Human are complicated.
When they are studying they wish for holidays but when having holidays they will miss their good times in school. LOL
What i do during my holidays?
Morning routine : Wake up , TV, Sleep .
Afternoon routine: computer , computer , computer.
Night routine: Ipad , Ipad, Nintendo Wii.
Midnight routine : Novel , sleep , sleep and sleep.
This is my holiday? seriously?
I wish i can go out and search for work.
You know, teenager needs money sometimes. ;D
but i am having a heavy butt, dun feel like working or walking here ang walking there.
The most important thing , noone wanna hire me. =X ( what a bad excuse ..xD)
I was a stalker and now i am a professional stalker.
Keep stalking people in Facebook and blogger during my holidays.
Gosh, i am a stalker! well, i admit it !xD
Church activities are getting more and more during holidays.
Having christmas celebration this year , and i am one of the 'member' in the sketch group.
Thank God , the sketch group had plot out a story .
AND, i am the one who should type it out .
Now, i am stuck in the middle of my sketch , i hope i am able to finish it before thursday .:)
Looking forward to many camps that organised by church and the christmas celebration and also the caroling .
Lalala~ oh ya, i was thinking to learn violin jazz drum during my holidays.
Now i am learning jazz drum , maybe will start violin soon if my mom allows me to :)
Fortunately , parents have planned some vacaions.
London postponed to next year ( I really really hope they wont postpone again ><)
Singapore maybe abt dec?
melacca , ipoh and pulau ..something ><
Oh ya, and gathering .
primary school gathering , f3 KRK gathering and Genting with KRK students? OMG
Out of money $.$
this can be a pointlss post , but i just type whatever came out of my mind.
I have no idea what i have typed. =w=
Oh ya, continue watching my ryan higa's video on youtube. xD
end of the post. TEEHEE.

Books everywhere in mah life

Books on table...
Books on dining table..
Books under the bed...
Books under the cupboard..
Books inside box...
Books on sofa...
Books in kitchen..
Books in toilet...
Books in my shoe box...
Books in microwave ><
See. BOOKS EVERYWHERE !!!
69days to PMR.
Not much time left!
I have to study le~
Will leave blog, facebook,youtube for...1 week.
STUDY ~

*short. No time.

不要对我那么好，我会哭的…………

回到教堂，
每个人，
都好像很想念我。
看到每个人，
那么关心我，
我，
的心，
酸了。
好想抱着他们哭。
好想抱着他们，诉苦。
好想，
一个肩膀给我靠。
你们越担心我，
我越想避开你们。
你们越要来安慰我，
我越想哭。
哭，
真的会让自己的心，
可以有短时间的，
舒服。
告诉自己，
不要哭，
不要在乎那么多，
其实，
自己，
无时无刻，
都在，
偷偷想念，
偷偷关心。
最近，
唯一让自己，
不去想，
就是，
读书来麻醉自己。
我要学会自己面对了！
所以，
我，
要，
去，
读，
书，
了。

朋友，

我知道你们很担心我，

我，

没事。