yes..i am missing you ...haiz..but no choice..
i cant control myself..
sorry to myself ..tat i cant do it ..
haiz...sry Lord...
anyway ..
nowadays..i mention in FB...
i reli bcum more abnormal ...
SMKTK ...reli loads of problems...TT
frenship ~studies~teachers~societies~~
n so on..reli a lot of things...
i try nt to think of it .
but ..u guys reli make me suffer n more headache..
i like quiet nowadays...
silent is nice...
silent gives me a space to have a deep breath...
2 more days...
BB pesta is cuming~~
i duno y ..
my msn pm ..put BB pesta cuming ^^ yeah ^^
but my heart is still normal..
ntg special..
i am nt happy wif it..
dunno y ..
maybe of my mood..n the problems i faced...
i hope during the pesta..
i may share my things..n also ask for help wif sum who r elder thn me...
i hope they will help me..^^
anyway ..
sry SMKTK...
maybe ...i was wrong...
but ....i reli cant find wad i wrong..
or maybe bcoz of my changing..
bcoz of this..
i knoe..all bcoz of him...
haiz..he ruined my life...
sry frens....
n sry my church frens....
i reli hope u guys noe me..forgive me...
i noe wad shud i do ..
n wad i am goin to do ...
but ..bcoz of him..
i reli cant control myself..
n i cant even do everything well..
haiz..when this heavy load wif go away??
y i still dun wan to let go ??
the answer still in my heart ...
but my heart...still kip quiet ..
my heart dun wan to tel me..TT
HEART,plz tel me....
love,yu xuan
