Had a great day with Carmen, Jackson and Onn Shin ^^

Hmm..2day is thursday !
Oh yeah , i slept at 5 this morning..
Yup, 5=DDD
Oh yeah..i was doing my tuition homework ..
n thn chat with Thean Hock, Teh Meng Huat ,Vivian, Danny,Kim Siang and Chu Jun.
Oh yeah..also listening to Kpop .=)))
oh yeah..fall in love with the song ' midnight sun'.
So leng zai =)))
muahaha, no choice, girls have to see leng zai .xP
i was doing my homework..n kip chattin wif those guys..
oh ya, tat thean hock mmg zhadao == ''
anyway, crazy for the songs!!!=))
Hey, i slp at 5 but woke up at 6 something..
Nah, idk why..
cant slp? or too crazy for the Korean songs? haha.idk.
i just know..i cant slp.
Nvm..just woke up..
n read my novels..
n thn 8:45..went for tuition .
Kesian me..holidays also nid to go ttn...
Oh yeah, after ttn, Me, Carmen , Onn Shin and Jackson went Galaxy to watch Megamind..
Nah, missed my harry TT
nvm..Megamind...teehee.
kinda boring this show...
but no choice , they dunwan watch harry..so watch megamind.
Hmm..okok this show,
nt as nice as i expect.
Oh yeah, i felt slping that time..><
After that...they go moutain climbing but i promise someone to do something..
so i din go..
Teehee, sry guys..cant follow u guys..
Owh, now, sitting in front of the com ,
typing this post..
Oh , Shoot, Headache!!!
Gonna slp soon..=)
Take k guys!!
oh yeah, pray for someone ...
He is sick =)

What a meaningful day =D

'' Baby Baby Baby o¬¬¬''
ok..my phone rang at 6:30am==
Ok..Wong Yi Xiong called me..
Grrr...
ask me nonsense..
dun care..
actually i have to wake up very early n have to go church..
but teng wei slp late..
so..i was same as her..
i slp until...730==
actually v have to arrive church at 730..
but v woke up at 730:P
fine...
after that, Teng wei fecth me..
Hnmm.her family n i went to KFC to have our breakfast=)
Hmm..i ate morning riser!
ok..Nice n the tea nt as nice as McD
i prefer McD.=)
Oh yeah, i met Loh Chun Yong, Thiam Hee's cousin , Chu Yao HUi , Jenny ...n sumo form 5 frens..
i was sooo shy n like kip away from them..
but i know..they recognise me.n they toking abt me..xD
when i finished..
i was rushing to church ..
so din even say a 'hi' wif them..
i know Yao Hui kip looking at me xP
Nah...teehee. i just ran away..haha .
coz go church !=)
hmm..went church ..
Sorry KeJang!! haha. I was the one who kip mentioning yesterday that he must go .
but i was the one who late.sry kejang..:)
Hmm..i cleaned the windows...n swept the floor..n wiped the chair..
the happiest thing is...
I CLEANED THE BB ROOM also!!=))))
so clean , tidy n systematic =))))
so nice , n so CLEAN!!
i love BB room !! haha.
Thx Wan Yin , Genisis , Thiam Hee , Kejang and others that i 4gt =P
u guys reli did a great job =)
Heehee..after tat v go decorate church for christmas...=)) heehee.
so nice, so clean , so beautiful n so happy! haha.xD
Hmm..after that , V go practise our sketch
Wow! singing!!=)))
i love it¬ so yeah ! n play drum ¬
nah, my drum skill bcm worse..
i hope thean Hock cm bek ...
so that he will teach me n improve my drum skill¬ heehee
After that , v gp have man ta suet!=)))
lallaa..Thx Teacher Irene and Teacher Chen for treating us=)))
after having dinner,
Me, Wen Wei n Teng Wei , Go wen wei's house..
play chor dai di !!=)))
oh yeah , had a super duper great n meaningful day ..
went home..had my bath,,
sms Loh Chun yong while on9..
n also tpe this post...
Oh shoot, i 4gt do my ttn hw..
Grr..kesian me><
gtg do my hw,
Form 5 frens, GamBateh!!=)))

Yu Xuan

the 250th post that abt my 1st day of my holidays...=)

My 1st day of my holiday..
one word can describe it..
which is..SUCKS!!
Nah, it's boring. i rather go to skul n study ~
I almost wated my whole morning n evening on Facebook.
Grr..yeah. Bad girl right?;)
hmm..kip finding people chat..
Elly..nah, no on9..
chiken soup gt ttn..cant on9 in the afternoon..
Nugget gt layan me..but he went to slp at 2 sumting..
teh-o-ais was very busy..so dunwan kacau him ...
most of the form 5 nt on9-ing..coz SPM is here..
Sotong no on9..maybe he busy?
everyone was very busy..
but luckily Tong Ke Jang find me this afternoon and chat wif me:) thx!!
oh ya, whole afternoon kip listening to Korea songs..
yup , SNSD songs..SJ songs..secret songs..Rainbow songs.
Nah..still gt more..
oh ya, n i watched playfull kiss oso..
nah, KIM HYUN JOONg so handsome.=)
heehee.
i wasted my day..
grr...fine.
2moro wil b a nice day..
going to church ! =))
oh ya, n 2moro is Andrew and Sgt. Ling bday!=)
gtg...go send wishes..
n slp ..2moro have to wake up early to go church!=)
Take k guys!
Love,
Yu Xuan

no school= no life

life without school ..is nt a wondeful life. FoR me.
Nah , Yesterday was my last day of my form 2 life.
sure will miss all the afternnon session teachers and the form 1.
Hmm.i reached at school , and saw Subbash.
so , talking with him for a while and i went to Jia Yi n Onn Shin there.
No longer, i saw Teh Meng Huat.
Nah, i called him, cause he still owe me someting.=D
nah, fine, he ran away..so dun care.
N thn , i saw my mama ( ivan yap wei yuan )
Grr..ignore me la? bad mama. din even say bye to me.
even the last day also din talk wif me.
FIne. i still gt poh lai !xD
hmm..saw poh lai , she promised me that she will go CHurch after her spm!=)
wooohoo..so happy that i still can meet her=)
after that bell rang,
everyone went up.
so did Yap.
So, Teh Meng Huat and Zact were in front of the bilik disiplin.
N thn they wannt see Yap. but she ran away..fine.
Lol..three of us kip Q-mar-ing..espcially tat Mr.Q-mar( TMH)
anyway..maybe yesterday was our last day met each other.
maybe no chance anymore.
But still, i am very very very happy n glad to know both of them.
they are great friends. They are really great seniors.
i bet i wil missss them alot after they leave the skul...
no choice....
i cant blame myself for nt knowing them last year right?xD
haha. so ..hope them will b on the path of success.!=D
i went out without saying Bye bye to them..kinda sorry yeah..
but i know v stil can kip in touch in Facebook, Msn or sms!=D
or maybe Hangout!=)))
Ok..they went home..
n i went up to our class..=)
Ok..me , Yasmin , Amy and Syakirah were busy making cards for teachers..
n V gt our T-shirt.
but This T-shirt kinda....Heehee.XP
ok..
1st mistake, syakirah's name bcm Syakinah
2nd mistake , Nadhir bcm Nadrin
3rd , Xi luan's name nt on it!!
Haiz....
anyway...tassha will handle..=)
yesterday was our last day...
before going home, v hug each other n salam each other before home..
Hidayah..cried..
nah, i know ..touched right? haha.
anyway..when i gt home..
Why the heck my tears cm out?
idk..maybe i really wil mis my frens?
LOL..v just nt going to skul for 1 month +
n v cried..
what will happen if v leave skul forever when v form 5?
haha. i cant imagine.=)
anyway. Now, i just know,
I wil miss my friends alot!!!
so do the form 4 (zact) and all the form 5 frens!! =D
i love all of u guys..
I LOVE you guys!!!!!!

there is a lie in the btwn of the word beLIEve..

I hate people when they are saying ‘ I dun care’ or ‘like I care’
This sentence really hurts me a lot.
Idk why.
But I can feel the ignorance of this sentence.
It seems like the person who types this sentence trying to ignore me.
I dun care..*sigh
What a bad sentence.
Friends should care each other.
And what the hell when a friend of mine saying ‘ I dun care’ to me?
That’s hurts me a lot.
There are so many quotes that about friendship.
But those quotes will never exist .
What care n love.
I so hate when a friend saying “ I dun care” , “ I hate you ‘, ‘ go away’.
I hate!
Yup, I hate ppl lied to me.
There is no such ppl can learn 3 months of paino thn can straight away to grade 8!!
There is no such ppl can play guitar for 2 months thn can bcm grade 3!!
There is no such thing that a person likes violin but don’t know hw many strings are there on the violin!!
Grrrr..
Stop lying to me.
Don’t think I am a stupid!
I was just pretending Idk .
I was just don’t want to argue with u .
Why? Coz I care our friendship.
You ard told me lots of lie!!
I feel very tired acting that idk.
U make me feel like I am a stupid person.
U made up all the story..
What couple..what form 3 couple..what same room ..
Fine. Lets just say, u gt a bf.
DUH! Stop posting everything in facebook.
Showoff.
Nah, I am nt jealous.
Just feel so lose face when a girl so crazy posting her bf and her on FB.
Hey,c’mon. This is disgusting ok?!
U are a girl..
I hate liar.
Plase tel me the truth before I do something.
I really dun wanna bcm a stupid.
U bullied me many times..
What I can do it just let u b and I was the one who gt hurt n being so stupid.!!!

I am who i am

Time passes so fast. Everything changed. the only thing that din’t change , it’s me. The only me. I am still Yu Xuan. Everyone think that i am changing. Hmm..i wonder change to a better or worse Yu Xuan? Perhaps..it’s worse.*sigh.
Maybe in many of my friends eyes, i am just a very normal friend. It isn’t important nor nice. Some of them might think that i am a actor .An actor with mask. Change my own mask when talking to different friends.
Nope, you guys are worng. I treat everyone in their own world. Every friend has his/her own style or way of talking. How to have a good relationship with friends? What we have to do is just try to listen and investigate them. Try to know them and to accept them as well.
What Yu Xuan do if talking with a friend? My way of making friends, just very simple. Use my own way to go into their world. i treat everyone with the same mask , which is the real me . perhaps it is the real me. I will try to know what my friend’s style and his or her personality. And i try to get into their world. i want to know more about them.that’s why i have to stay at their side , stand at their angle to see the world. everyone’s personality and thinking are different. What i do it just try to understand and accept what my friend thinking off.
I am just a stupid. I am just an idiot. I know how to have a real and true friend but i think i din do my own character. I am just a stupid that doesn’t care my friends. I really hate myself for being so stupid that i just keep quiet when u guys hurt me . I was wrong that i didn’t get to know why u guys want to hurt me , and i didn’t even to find a solution to repair the broken bridge among us.
Maybe i was wrong. I was wrong that i become your friend. I was wrong that i didn’t do anything that can let u stop misunderstanding me.
Maybe i am really a stupid. What i can do it just doing nothing.
*sigh.

Yu XUan...

i hope one day shooting stars appear=)

2moro will b my last day of going to skul in my form 2 life..
look back..i waste my time.i think.
sometimes..i feel like going to the top of the building.
hey,nope,nt going to commit suicide.
just..hope sitting there..waiting for shooting star.
nah,u may think i am stupid.
but nope for me.=)
yeah, waiting for shooting stars n thining of my past...
this is one way of knowing myself.
yup,even myself , idk the real me.
what is the real face of me.
what character i play in my life?idk.
what i just know, i am a amzing creator of God=]
somehow, i dun feel making any voice in this world.
sometimes..i use to be very noisy..
this is one way of covering my sadness..
sitting in front of com..
is one way for me to release my stress n sadness..
i can write down everything tat happen in my life in here.
i can jot down everything tat make me happy or sad here.
this is whr my sadness n happiness live.
Blog is a great place for me to relex^^
yu xuan is yu xuan.
nobody can replace me.
what person am i ..please dun judge me.
i just awesome just the way i am .
yeah, AWESOME!=)
listening to music is part of my life.
i can feel the musical notes flowing inside my body.
i can think lots of thing by listening to music.
Sad, Bad, Good, Happy , angry, High..
it can describes my mood.
i use songs to describes my mood.
Pray is the most important way to know abt myself..
praying to God can build a better relationship btwn me n God.
actually, idk what the purpose i typing this blog..
i just know, i really happy tat i can share my things wif my blog=]
i really hope one day..i can sitting on the roof of my house..
waiting for shooting stars..^^

They light up my life =]

2moro will b my last day off going to school.

for my form 2 life.

n my last day of going to skul in the afternoon.

feel so sad and having bad feelings actually.

all my form 5 frens are leaving me.

*sigh

1.Polly Chan

The best best best best best senior ever! i rmb i knew her coz of St.John. 1st time i met her, my 1st impression on her was, she reli looks like a cute rabbit=] yeah..haha. n her leadership is very good! she is cute,beauty n sweet!!!=DDDshe takes care me alot. n she promise me tat she will go church after spm:) She really a caring person . she reli help s me alot n she taught me lots of things..She is my sister. oh ya, she is my dear!!!^^ haha. She is a kind and optimistic girl. I am very happy tat i know her. although v just know each other abt 1 year, the relationship btwn us are very very very close n really really know each other very well!=DDD

Dear, Please take k of urself. with God's power , i know u have the opportunity to go church ! i wait for u ya^^ teehee.

2nd. Ivan Yap Wei Yuan

Opps..heehee..i cant find a better pic..so yeah.

this is the nicest pic in his album.=]

oh ya, he is a funny guy. yeah, FUNNY.!=D he always make me laugh..n he is also a caring guy.1st time i met him was also in St.John. sry la..1st time i met him , he ard made me laugh ^^ he reli lights up my life when i am sad. =D a very nice senior also . He is my mama at skul . yup,nt joking my mama!=D the name'mama' i call him have a story..but cant say it here!=D haha. Oh ya, idk why..he also likes to bully me . Nah, guy bully gals..so bad!xPhe is a guy likes to stress himself .i dk why..he very sked tat he cant gt good results in his spm.n he kip reading readin..anyway, u r a great mama!!=DDD Good luck in ur exam ..dun stress urself. Work no play is nt very healthy for u de a¬jia you lo!^^

3rd.Cheah Ai Wen

Hmm..this is my Dai Lou! she is a dai ga jie lai de !=DD haha. She also taught me alot of thing during Selling stickers when st.john flag day^^ heehee.She a..hmm..nowadays less tok wif her le, dunno how is she? Monday gonna poke her! =D i will misss her alot too.i will rmb those day v been 2getther..i will miss those days v sell stickers together..i will rmb what u said to me!!=DD

Dai Lou , u are always in my heart !!!=)

4th.Teh Meng Huat

Hmm..this guy gt lots of yeng n nice pic in his album..but dunno hw to choose..so i chose this=]ok..this guy..hmm..just gt to know him since last week..i guess so. i rmb the 1st day i met him.he was sooo cool n like wanna kill someone. =P n his dancing is AWESOME!=) Oh ya, 1st of all, i tot he was malay, yeah , he really looks like a malay, like Yap. Ok, he is a crazy ppl. He cant watch a funny video for more thn 100++ times== so crazy @_@ somehow, he is crazy of KPOP ...Nah, he is the one who introduce Ksongs for me. xP oh ya, he is a bro of me. Okok lo. nt bad lo. but i rmb the time he wanna find me at skul but i ran away from him tat time. i will ROFL when i think of it. anyway, he is genius..he still can on9 although spm still around the corner.xP Ok la, Big gor gor..Gambateh in ur spm ..everything just let God handle^^=D

Hmm...actually still gt many..But 4 for 2day..2moro continue=D 4 of them..i reli will misss them ..but i know everything happen with a reason.So, yeah . I am ok wif it!!=DD

love all of u guys!!!with love,Yu Xuan

Peace and Love

I am a girl that likes to think alot.
Yeah,Love n peace are what i need in my teen life.
Love, God's love is amazing .
but i still want more.
this is nt greedy, is this a basic needs for me.
yup, no joing here. Its true.
Love btwn me n God , btwn me n my parents, friends n my parents.
This is basic love for me.
Nowadays..
human are so selfish n just think of themselves only.
din care abt the others .
Love nt the love like couple..
Love is bridge of building good relationship btwn each other.
i hope everyone can show their love to the world. to the public.
Human! when the word 'love' appears in ur mind.
please dun just think of couple tat love!
please think tat love can bring happiness to those who are less fortune.
And peace..
idk why ppl around me likes to make rumours..?
y they like to disturbing other ppl's lives?
y they wan to have arguement btwn frens?
why do they wan to have quarrel?
why cant everybody be 2gether happily?
i just hate ppl that acting very good wif u n they are just backstaber n betrayer!
what they reli want?
hurting me? making me angry?
i know they reason..
they just jealous of me!
i know!
c'mon.
there is no fault tat i know lots of form3 , form 4 n form 5 frens..
there is no fault tat i am very close wif them?
there is no fault tat teachers rmb my name or nice to me!
i am just a normal student. normal human.
what for u jealous of?
if u jealous n u hate me ..
tat's ok. i dun blame on u .
because i understand, everyone will jealous of somebody.
but please la.
v are friends. everyone in this world nid frens.
so do u n me.
but what to do ?
i cant change u ..
what to do ..
it's just try to get to know more of u , try to understand u ,try to accept u .
this is wad i can do .
But please , stop making rumours..stop making quarrels ..
PEACE. this is wad i want.
peace and love,
both of them..can make the world better thn full of happiness..
But i know, this need God.
i cant change the world wif my own..
i still need God's strength n power.


with love n a peaceful heart,
Yu Xuan<

林宇中!

哇！哇！哇！
近距离阿~
哈哈
林宇中阿!
haha.
want take photo wif him..
but--
mom said me 38
fine lo.
so sad cant sing wif him..haha.
Ok..something happen to me..
but dunwan post here
if u read this
pray for me as well.
thx

last day of my form 2.

next monday will b my last day of my form 2 life.
Gonna enjoy it!^^

Fake world..

I use my heart to treat my friends very well..
n everyone kip acting infront of me..
everyone wearing a mask n try to get into me.
Idk what i can say..
i just know..everything they do ..
just try to have revenge on me.
What i can do is just buat bodoh je.
That's all .
Idk..everyone in my life is so fake...
i hate go to skul..
i hate facing chinese frens..except Amy n xi luan..
the rest..very fake..
Yea, so do u .
sumtimes..i think everything was my fault..
what i know is..
everyone just pretending to be good wif me but actually a betrayer.
sometimes i just pretend ntg happen..
hopefully everything past...
i know someone lied to me many things..
i know someone told the other side abt me..
i know..everything I KNOW!
what to do?
just pretend ntg happen......
This is what i can do .

Only God knows what to do...

Hey Blog!=DD
i've been loooong time din cm here.
coz lack of time n do nt have the mood to type.
n 2day,i am free!^^
school will finish in one week time.
will miss my classmates n teachers alot.
feel like nt having my holidays..
Nah,i am cool tat way=DD


many things happen to me nowadays..
some happy..some sad...some making me angry..
idk what i am facing now actually...
Anyway, i know God is controling everything..
i know..HE will lead me the way...


Haiz..why?
again?
i hope it isnt..
but...
i know...it is...
what God want me to do actually?
y again?
again wif a cant-let-go-feeling??
I hope God will tel me what to do ...TT


I just gt my exam papers..
hmm..
nt bad..n nt really good..
okok la..
quite satisfied wif my marks..
its just SATISFIED..nt reli happy wif it..
BUt still, i am happy=DD

hmm..actually,nt posting a long post for 2day..
coz..gotta do my works...
lots of works...
Jamuan 2morrow..God, everything in ur control!
Amen.

for the Spm ,
Gambateh form 5 frens!!!^^