Time passes so fast. Everything changed. the only thing that din’t change , it’s me. The only me. I am still Yu Xuan. Everyone think that i am changing. Hmm..i wonder change to a better or worse Yu Xuan? Perhaps..it’s worse.*sigh.
Maybe in many of my friends eyes, i am just a very normal friend. It isn’t important nor nice. Some of them might think that i am a actor .An actor with mask. Change my own mask when talking to different friends.
Nope, you guys are worng. I treat everyone in their own world. Every friend has his/her own style or way of talking. How to have a good relationship with friends? What we have to do is just try to listen and investigate them. Try to know them and to accept them as well.
What Yu Xuan do if talking with a friend? My way of making friends, just very simple. Use my own way to go into their world. i treat everyone with the same mask , which is the real me . perhaps it is the real me. I will try to know what my friend’s style and his or her personality. And i try to get into their world. i want to know more about them.that’s why i have to stay at their side , stand at their angle to see the world. everyone’s personality and thinking are different. What i do it just try to understand and accept what my friend thinking off.
I am just a stupid. I am just an idiot. I know how to have a real and true friend but i think i din do my own character. I am just a stupid that doesn’t care my friends. I really hate myself for being so stupid that i just keep quiet when u guys hurt me . I was wrong that i didn’t get to know why u guys want to hurt me , and i didn’t even to find a solution to repair the broken bridge among us.
Maybe i was wrong. I was wrong that i become your friend. I was wrong that i didn’t do anything that can let u stop misunderstanding me.
Maybe i am really a stupid. What i can do it just doing nothing.
*sigh.
Yu XUan...
