I miss my boyfriend =)

I miss my boyfriend. Wahahaha, dun think too far, we are here , on earth ,not on saturn. x) who is my boyfriend? xD haha, nola. It's just my childhood friend. Teehee, his name is XXX . I don't wanna post his pic here , coz i sked ppl will crush on him, u know , he is mine. xDDD *jk. Hmm, he is my boyfriend when i was small. =) He take good care of me, he understand me, he play with me, he teach me to do my homework..bla bla bla¬ Everyone called him , Yu xuan's boyfriend. bcoz we always together =)) haha¬ We really really close that time. Where he go, what he do, i sure will follow. x) He is a very nice guy, he is caring, and he sayang me also. =) teehee, when i was small, everyday he sure will buy something for me from school, and we will have lunch and dinner everyday , we will go out n play in the evening, play games together, talk kata hati 2gether..i miss those times we being together. =) Honestly, from the bottom of my heart, i really miss him. when i was standard 4 , he had to went to secondary school, and he was nt going to my baby sitter which is his auntie's house anymore. That time, the day he left, he gave me a key chain , up there written ' wait for me , no matter how long is it .. take care . ^o^ ' .. i was so touched when i received it.. but nobody knows that existance of the keychain..i kept it in a box..even now, still inside it. the day he left, we hug each other and did the pinky promise.. i cried that time but stop after crying for few minutes.. I still dun hv hp..and there was no FB yet..that's why, i cried."_" Time passes so fast. I din meet him for 4 years + . that day , last week , i saw him. He so lengzai n tall ard. =))) but, he forgot everything he promised that he said to me.. Those happy moments, will be the most precious memories for me, but him. We met that day , without any conversation, without any eye-to-eye connection.. i was looking at him, when he was nt looking at me, but i dunno whether did he look at me or not. I added him in FB and MSN. We din even chat once. maybe he 4gt abt me¬ i was really dissapointed..n i cried that day too. I went home, open my box, took out the keychain... different kind of feelings in me.. I cant control my tears .. n i cried again. those happy memories, will never never never never forget. i really miss him. I hope i can have his num. can call him¬ sms him¬.... nah, I really really miss him . TT i dont care, even it's just a 'hi'..i still happy with it. =)

I miss you..

I know u forget abt me..

but your promise...

please...

dun break your promise...

I really hope to meet u soon...

take care....

♥

There is always a 'LIE' in the word believe..

Friends, what are friends?

Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating the following on a consistent basis:
The tendency to desire what is best for the other
Sympathy and empathy
Honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth, especially in terms of pointing out the perceived faults of one's counterpart
Mutual understanding and compassion
Trust in one another (able to express feelings - including in relation to the other's actions - without the fear of being judged); able to go to each other for emotional support
Positive reciprocity - a relationship is based on equal give and take between the two parties

*sigh .. What i hope gt from you it's trust. is that hard? I really don't know how to be ur fren, feel so pressured.. What do you want i do? ur attitude is the main problem, i 4gv u and understand u bcoz i know nobody is perfect in this world. U treat me bad , i am ok. Idk other ppl hate u or not, but i can tell u honestly, A Lot of ppl complaining u . But i cant do anything, what i can do it just, be patient and just kip quiet.

You don't trust me, idc. but dun make things bad, dun screw up everything. you want do it, u want help , of coz i am glad, but please, just follow what i said, i am the leader,cant u just listen to me? I know u have this kind of experience, but why dont u let me have a try? What i can do now~ it's just let you be . Sure other members will b very angry~ *sigh Lord oh Lord, Please help me .=(

Yu Xuan really needs peace now. Hope u can understand me . =(

Danny=)

Dear Danny, happy birthday to you. Since u said u dont wanna put ur pic here, so i din=)
i really miss you. I know we cant have celebration tonight~ bt i really hope u celebrate with your family in Klang. Happy without me..~ xDxD
wei wei wei , idk what to buy for u a~! forgv me that i din buy anything, but i made something for u..=)))
All the best in your studies.. i know u can do it=) form4 is tough, still have to face. Addmath dunno? ask Viks, sure she will teach u .xP Bio Chem?haha, ask the books.~ Just do your best, no matter how the results, God still love u =)
I am fine here. =) i guai d~ less gastrict liao. teehee.
oh yaya, HAPPY BLESSING BIRTHDAY!!!!! =)))

New life for Meh!=)

New background= New life.
Teehee. Thanks, Niiko Park for doing this. =)
I love you ^^
Anyway, off to study science.
Chaos¬
Peace out =)

love, Yu Xuan

He+She = ?

They were back from NCO traning~
sure they enjoyed much.
so sad that i couldnt make it ... haiz..stupid school.
sure both of them have fun..
nah, nice , sweet and happy memories?
nevermind, i am ok. although kinda not in a mood while listening you guys talking about the camp...
still, i so proud of u guys!!=)

i know he had fun time with her...
but what to do?
i din go what..
i was nt there wad..
they enjoyed is ok~
as long as i din see it.=)
nah, they came back,
wadever....................................


no mood d, go slp.
blur post, blur me,
go slp .


LET THE RAIN WASH AWAY ALL THE PAIN OF YESTERDAY.....

It's him, i hope can meet him again at school.

Dun ask why pink. bcoz it's pink. =) teehee..
Bcoz, something special about someone who is special.=]]]

Oooh Oooh!! i saw him i saw him !<3>
he just walking beside me! teehee.xPPPP
Yeah , that guy..that charming guy.. if i have nt mistaken, he is form 4 ..
Nah, tall, handsome , sporty.=)))
He soooo yeng when he play basketball.
Woi woi woi, no like like here a~ no crush crush here a~xP
just, admire.=]]]]
i met him few weeks ago, i think.
i was tugas-ing, n i saw him playing basketball with his friends, but obviously, he is the outstanding one n the most lengzai one.xP *budak ni spying lengzai while tugas xP
i love my working spot. <3>
His eyes are sooooo attractive, his eyes melted my heart...Aaaa~ love his eyes.
someone knows who is he, bcoz he also said he lengzai! ( hey, yao ngan gong a ! xD)

Ok, i saw him on thursday actually. Teehee. Pasar malam. i was walking .. after that a guy stepped on me, i was like 'ouch' n tat guy said: Sorry, are u ok? (in chinese ) . I saw him, his eyes killing me, his voice stole away my heart, i replied: i am ok, it's ok. And thn, he walk away,without a glance, without goodbye=(( he was wearing jeans, a black jacket, normal guy attire.. but for me, i prefer he wears white T ..just like the 1st time i met him. if i know him, sure i will crush on him, sure i will like him!! xP but nope, impossible that i can know him..

i hope can meet him at school one day. standing infront of the computer class, starring at him playing basketball 'yengly' xP .. just him, i dunwan others, just him. <3>
hope to see you soon..of coz, with your smile also.=)

with love, <3
yu xuan

1+1=2

exam finished, holidays here. For me, it still the same. ok, happy exams over; sad results nt as good as i desire. whatever, will try harder~ idc anymore. totally disapointed. but what to do? still have to face it~ so , just leave it! wor, holidays so bad . want shooping also cant..out of money... i want have a part time job, but my dad n mom do allow me~ nah, i am a big big girl in a big bigr world..no need to worry abt me .. fine, i have another way to earn money, muahaha, doing housechores..=)))

i wanna post pics in here actually, but lazy plus idw my ugly ghost face scare ppl here!xP aiya, no la, just lazy to wait the pic sto load, i know my blog is kinda boring..but u like i like. i prefer my style~xP cheh. chui a?xD dont judge my blog, coz u r judging my life. my life is mine, nt yours, u dun have the right to judge it~ so, get out of my way ..

i hate boastful person, adoi, u dont have that kind of talent just admit it, no nid to act like u know! WTFish?! musical instruments aint as easy as u think? learn for few years thn grade 7? sumo nt one instrument, but alot. Piano, guitar, violin, bass guitar..ALL? ookok, just let say , OK, u know how to play but thn , why the time v ask u to play u dun want and kip saying u din know how to play bcoz been years u din touch that instruments？ SUCKS! u r lying.. a person with grade 6 guitar doesnt know how to hold guitar? funny== stop acting infront of me.

ok, holiday..it same as my school life, i still have to go back to school, still have to attend tuition class, still have to do homework, still have to do my sivik folio.. the only thing that is different is, i can sleep more!x) choral speaking still out of GUYS. yeah, not enough guys,, Vivian is finding form 4 guys,,hope they will join.. Hope so... and choral speaking~ a!! nt much time left.have to practise harder ... v r lack of practise.!

Yo~ phone bill killing me X.X RM100++ oh dear me. for this month... how am i suppose to pay? i am a poor kid！anobody donate money for me?XP stop using phone? NOWAY! Oh stupid dad used up the battery of my IPOD, now i cant use.. waiting for charging~ so stupid!

Yeeeeyerrr, boring a! Off for ...... SLEEP!!
<3

final decision, final hope.

Yay! finaly decision.
Go church =))
teehee. off lu¬
Those who having Exam..
GAMBATEH N GOOD LUCK YEA=)
All for this beautiful morning x)