不是我苯，是别人聪明过我。I am nt stupid, it just others cleverer than me.=(

'他尽力就好’
'不要要求那么多了'
'他至少有读就好了'
Bullshit!!! Grrrr....
u said like this last time..but now?!
What o? Now all my fault la?
U always scold me for what i did wrong ,
but NEVER praise me for what i did correct.
No facebook, No youtube, Less on com, you NEVER notice.
I was doing my revision until midnight, you NEVER notice.
I kawad until my skin getting taner and taner.. you NEVER notice.
I kawad till my feet pain, you NEVER notice.
U keep nagging me that i din do my homework ..
Mom, trust me. I am your daughter.
I know what is right, what is wrong.
I know what i should do and what i shouldn't.
Please, stop comparing me with others.
I know, i am nt clever, i know, I din get straight As.
But please, i did my best. Why still wanna force me?
I reli stressed! Why? Why must be KRK students?
I dunwan, how i wish i am a normal student with normal results.
I am clever among the others but i am a stupid among the genius.
There are lots of ppl cleverer thn me, please.. can u just stop comapring?
I cant breathe ... I need space!
I hate alot! U gt ur own problems in ur work,
n u blame on me when i back from school?
DANG! I study from morning , n thn kawad till evening.
I need rest ! Please, dun torture my ears...
STOP membebel beside my ears..!
I know, Everyone knows!
THIS YEAR PMR.
STOP reminding me, i know it! Grrr..
I've planned everything inside my calender..
I start doing revision ard!
I watch TV to take a break n u scold me for wasting my time watching stupid show but nt study?
Oh mom, please!
I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO!
i am nt a child anymore.
My room is untidy, i know.
But this is my room...
i know what i shall do with it.
I will clean n tidy up once every one of two months..
but you NEVER NEVER NEVER know ,
NEVER NEVER NEVER notice..
Yu Xuan is nt a child anymore...
I know, u angry with me..
because my results nt good.
NAh, nt i'm stupid.
My friends are just, cleverer than me.=(
The genius came to our class ,
That's why i cant get top 10!
Nah, MOM! please,
look at mah percentage, nt the number!!!!!
As long as , I have improvement!
You just din see it..
You have problems in your work, you stressed beacause of work,
PLEASE DUN BLAME ON ME.
不要找我出气！
Everyone has his or her own problems..
i have mine too, but i din reply difiantly when u scold me..
I din even talk with u guys..
i just keep quiet and do my own things in my room.
And u guys,
Din lock door, BLAME on me.
forgot to bring out phone or wallet, BLAME on me.
Cant pick up the phone, BLAME on me.
everything BLAME on me!
Everytime i do my own things in my room,
U will think i on9, watch TV , do anything besides study...
U will NEVER think of i do my revision!
MOM!!!! DAD!!!! I know it's PMR year for me!!!
now it's april... i know, less thn 5 months..
but i DID my revision! =(
PLEASE, stop scolding me...
I hate it alot...
School stuff, homework.kawad,st.John, folios, Parents, motivasi, Bengket manjawad...
My head gonna BOOM!!!
I know, u guys will be scolding me very badly if i din get 8A.
Sure u guys will say :
那个时候不好好读拉，现在没有8个咯。叫你停BB又不要，叫你读书，你又整天上网，真的是！bla bla bla ...
Haiz....Am i born to study ONLY?
I enjoy my school life.
seriously, i am having fun in school,
learning...studying..is fun.
eventhough there are exams..
Please, dun ruin my life,
I have my own way of studying..
I know what i shall do ,
like standard 6..
i will study , i will do my revision..
i planned everything!
it just waiting for the right time..
Please..I need encourage, i need love, i need concern..
i know, u nagging everyday is for my own good.
I understand, but,
YU XUAN need silence...

我有我自己分寸，

我不是小孩了，

我会分配我自己的时间，

不要给我压力，

学业是我自己的，

前面的道路是我自己的，

我有我自己的空间，

我有我自己读书的方法，

为什么你就是不相信我？

我会乖乖的读书，

乖乖的上课，

乖乖的考试。

我只要求你一样东西，

不要说我没读书，

不要说我每天上网。

=（

stupid person writes.....

我行我素的風格 就是忠於我的選擇！

JJ林俊杰，农夫[由你选择]

一首歌，已经表达我的心声。。。

Peace out...

烦! 烦！烦！

The sun is shining so bright, the sky so blue and the birds still tweeting on the branches... Yu xuan here , heart still beating, still breathing, still alive=) the only thing i hope to do it's make myself sick. NAH!!!! BUSY! BUSY!BUSY! Pressure! Pressure! Pressure! Homework! Homework! Homework! Kawad! Kawad! Kawad! Hot sun! Hot sun! Hot sun! ARGH! can i knock myself at the wall? I really hope i can skip school,for a week. T_T Seriously and honestly. I'm Pissed!!!! Everything just came together, clash together.. Everything just came at the same time. WHat i can do , it's just follow everything. Morning school, afternoon kawad, night tuition, midnight homework. THIS IS MY LIFE?! i dun wan this kind of life! It annoys me alot! MOst of the time, i gave it to school activities.. I feel so sorry to God.. I din even spend time with him.. not even 5 mins..=( Sorry.. After this week, I'm free of kawad! n that time, i will be free! n i can read bible and attend church activities!=) YAY!!=)) Oh no no no no=( Mid term exam .. OH DAMN! Study Study Study. i wonder how will my life be if i no need to go to school ? NAH! Exam Exam Exam! PMR PMR PMR! i hate form 3... Grrr... I love learning, but i hate studying.. I love learning, but i hate exam. Ish! BUSY LIFE FOR ME . I hate morning session.. i prefer afternoon. so that , my time is packed. nt like now, afternoon, KAWAD! =( I am getting more looked like a zombie.. Almost everynight i sleep at 2 or 3 something.. n wake up at 6am.. out of sleep. lack of rest. I am nt exaggerating.. i am seriously looked like a panda. eyebags. =( OMG, they are heavy!!! N my skin.. HELL no...=( Nt fair anymore =(((( Goodness, no facebook, my time nt so packed!=) finally, i finish all my Math.=) Teehee, i will buy more when i go popular=) Need start do revision ... My mom asked my to stop BB. Haiz.. should i or shouldn't? idk, what i can do for this week is.. Kawad... After This coming saturday, sure i will get crazy! SHout like a moron , JUmp like a monkey! By the way, I want to say again. I AM FREAKING BUSY!!!!!!!!

can i have my normal life back?=(

What i want, just a simple life.

Just a very very simple and happy school life=(

I wan out of those pressure!

haiz......

Peace out,

With love,

Yu Xuan